Grief

Fellstar woke with a start, his throat still choked from loosing Ivorypaw so long ago. Things weren't fair, Lightenedcall had killed two of his kits and Ebonypaw was next, and yet, the clan would have a fit if he banished her, and he knew, that even if she was banished that it would not stop her from coming after Ebonypaw. Life wasn't fair. Wandernight had already lost so much, and poor Ebonypaw was marked for death. Even when he was a kit and his parents had found out he was blind. The day Quailstar told him he could never be a warrior. He had never felt to helpless... so small.

Something had to be done. But nothing could be done. Nothing. At. All. His children, the kits he had brought into this world were dying slowly, painfully, and he could do nothing. His mate had to suffer each of their deaths. Why had he done this. He knew Something wasn't right with Lightenedcall, he should have just stayed her mate. Then, none of this would have been happening. He should have just died with the rest of his clan, many moons ago. He should've let Wandernight rebuild JayClan.

Forcing himself to his paws, they took him down the familier path to the JayBranch. He lept up, calling the clan to him. "We have many cats that have prooved themselves worthy warriors, Scarletpaw, Hawkpaw, Gingerpaw, Smokepaw, S-" he stopped, Lightenedcall's kit. Did he deserve to become a warrior? He was surely just as twisted as his mother. Taking a breath, he continued "and... Shrewpaw step forward."

He looked to each of their mentors in turn "Do you believe these cats are ready to recieve their warrior names?"

The mentors nodded, and Fellstar prepared for the ceremonies.

He took a deep breath "I, Fellstar, Leader of JayClan, call upon my warrior ancestors to look down upon these apprentices. They have trained hard to learn the way of your noble cod,e and I condemn them as warriors to you in turn. Do you promise to follow the ways of the warrior code and defend the clan even at the cost of your life?"

"I do." the excited apprentices said in unison.

"Then by the powers of StarClan, I give your your warrior names!

Scarletpaw, you will be known as Scarletthorn, JayClan honors your wits.

Hawkpaw, you will be known as Hawksky, JayClan honors your strength.

Gingerpaw, you will be known as Gingerflight, JayClan honors your integrity.

Smokepaw, you will be known as Smokewing, JayClan honors your sense of honor.

Shrewpaw, you will be known as... Shrewfang, JayClan honors your... sharp senses."

He placed his muzzle atop the new warriors heads in turn. And the Clan shouted the new warriors names.

Fellstar smiled, and lept off the JayBranch, his head spinning with a mix of happiness and grief.